Apparently a whole lot more than I realized. I had an amazing conversation/session with Neimologist Sharon Lynn Wyeth (www.knowthename.com). Neimology is the science of letter placement in your name and it all starts with the first vowel of your first name.
Prior to my session, I provided Ms.Wyeth with my birth name, my parents’ birth names and people in my family. The things she told me about my parents and the family dynamics amazed me. All from just knowing their names. It was like she’d known my parents all her life.
What she told me made great deal of sense to skeptical me.
Total sense, complete with several ah-ha moments and a lot of closure. Made peace with some pieces of my past.
When she came to explaining my name, I completely understood why my nickname (Cammy) really does not reflect who I am and, more importantly, who I feel I am.
It gives the wrong impression.
It says I’m a bully magnet and more interested in pleasing people than anything else. Cammy has positive aspects as well, but bully magnet and people pleaser were a red flag to me.
I’m tired of people trying to bully and manipulate me. Not that they can. They just think they can. And it has gotten boring.
And people pleaser, too. I like to be generous but I’m not doing it because I want people to like me. Geez! I’m too busy doing my thing to worry if you like me or not.
Besides, there is a difference between being seen as a people pleaser or someone who leads with kindness.
Therefore, to be my authentic self, I am choosing to be Cynthia or Cyn or Bryn. C.B.Williams works, too.
But not Cammy. Cammy is not who I am and it’s not how I want to be thought of.
Who wants to be a bully magnet anyway?
However, people who’ve known me…like….since before the dawn of time…by the name Cammy are probably going to want to call me by that a name.
That’s fine. They can. But it’s not who I am.
I am GROOT.
Have a great week, peeps!